But Why?

This is post 338.

Which tells me that I'm coming up on 365.

In my mind I'm patting myself on the back.

I came back here,

time and time again.

My emotions over the last 12 months

have waxed and waned.

Sometimes I questioned My 'Why'?

Why am I doing this?

Why would anyone care?

Why would anyone read my words?

Why would I think that people might?

Would anyone notice if I stopped?

I guess that last one isn't a why.

The last couple months filled with the hustle and stress of work life

has over taken the writing groove that I had sunk into during my year as a full time student.

I'm not going to lie,

it brings me down.

Not always having the time

or the energy.

I want to sink back into that groove.

the full time writers bubble.

It makes me subtly resentful ~

to have felt that I came SO Far

and then to so easily get pulled back into the lifestyle

that I was in before I took a leap to follow my dream.

So if you asked me today what's My 'Why'?

Coming here reminds me of that commitment I made

TO the little girl who wanted to grow up to be a writer

and tell stories on the screen.

I'm here for her.

And for you,

if you show up.

I'll keep showing up.

She deserves it.